January 2012
3 posts
I have been fucking things up daily. Something’s gotta give before I go crazy. May be single in the near future & I’m not sure I feel about it just yet. I’ll let a brutha know if it happens. :p
Ps. All I know is if it does… I can’t stay in this house. :0
October 2010
1 post
Living my miserable life. Not much to say about it other than it sucks. I lost myself a long time ago. I basically live one day at a time. I have no will to plan or hope or dream. Just counting the minutes until it all ends.
July 2010
114 posts
So I’m leaving to Ed. this week. I know I’m going to be soo lonesome but I’ll survive. My sister’s working for 10 days & I’ll be watching my nephew. I have so much to do before I leave. I have to pay all the bills, buy groceries, do laundry, & pack. I was suppose to leave tomorrow but it’s just too soon. She doesn’t need me until thursday so...
“and love is not a victory march; it’s a cold and it’s a broken hallelujah.”
– hallelujah - leonard cohen.
I dislike the fact that new mothers leave there newborn children for an entire night & day to go out & party. I’m talking about less than 2 wk old babies. Fucken ridiculous.
I wish I had my license and this beast in the back was legal to drive. I’m hungry and there isn’t any food I can eat. I was going to make perogies but some sav ate them all. So I’m trying to find a way to a drive-thru somewhere so I can eat my feelings away because today is not a good fucking day.
“So tell me when you hear my heart stop.
You’re the only one that knows....”
– Lykke Li
I was a heavy heart to carry.
I just want to break you down so badly, in the...
I need to meet someone who can lay on my bedroom...
i wonder if people who call me photogenic realise...
I think I’m the only person I know of who watches more than one show or movie at once.
For example I’m watching two documentaries & this morning I was watching two movies.
lol
Today is not a good day.
I hope this feeling passes soon.
Day 29 — Hopes, dreams and plans for the next 365...
I plan to graduate this year. I know I’m capable of it. I only need a few more credits & I’m done.
I hope that me & bg can actually start living our OWN lives. That is a really big wish…which I don’t believe will happen.
But if not then I wish that we have our own place w/ the kids ONLY. Not his sisters & brothers & brother in law. Just us and it’ll...
Day 28 — This year, in great detail
My year. It’s actually hard to write about this year. Omg, so much has happened. My mom moved out. That was a big thing. I was so lonesome at first & I really regretted it because that’s when she spiraled downwards into her addiction. That was a hard time. She was so into her addictions that she was on the verge of losing everything. I had given up. I really had nothing left to...
Day 27 — This month, in great detail
This month has been hectic. We found out that we need to move. My mother in law was in a car accident and was almost paralyzed. I’m starting to get really depressed about childhood again. It’s odd. I can be totally fine for a year & then all of a sudden it hits me all over again. I’m afraid to talk to bg about it. He doesn’t listen. I don’t think he believes my...
Day 26 — Your week, in great detail
My week was alright minus a few bumps. Today is wednesday so I’ll start back from last week.
Wednesday evening my sister in law shelly went into labour. She had her bundle of joy 3:43 am thursday. Wednesday was the same day I went w/ my bf to his staff bbq. It was alright, I have to admit I tell strangers a little too much about my life when I’m drunk. Bad fucken habit. Thursday was...