My year. It’s actually hard to write about this year. Omg, so much has happened. My mom moved out. That was a big thing. I was so lonesome at first & I really regretted it because that’s when she spiraled downwards into her addiction. That was a hard time. She was so into her addictions that she was on the verge of losing everything. I had given up. I really had nothing left to give. I was prepared to take my brother & sister in & start raising them. But it didn’t go that far and for that I am so thankful. My sister had a baby. Jamison Lucas Marcel. The cutest thing ever. I’ve never experienced ‘love at first sight’ and I didn’t believe in it until I saw him. I love him so much I can’t describe it. I’d kill for him haha. Well I do that for pretty much my whole fam but anyways. My auntie got married. I was a bridesmaid. It was fun. Me & my bf started living alone, well technically not alone…but w/o my mom around. Then, his entire family moved in, so I guess we haven’t lived alone? God I can’t wait for the day it’s just me & him. We deserve that much I think. To experience a life of our own. I can’t wait for that day. Okay..going on. This time last year is when I gave up on my dad. He treated me like shit when I called to wish him a happy bday & fathers day. BIG MISTAKE. I haven’t forgiven him yet. I’m really tired of letting people push me around & he’s done enough of that so I just said fuck it. I’m not going to chase him around & beg him to be in my life. It’s up to him now and he obviously doesn’t want me in his life so whatev’s. I’m all gee. I’ve made it 21 yrs w/o him I’m sure I can survive another 21 w/o him. WOW. A lot has happened this year. I started cutting again this yr too. Bad decision. I’m not doing it now but I did months ago. Hmm. I can’t remember anything else that happened so I’ll end it here.
